After Christmas, I decided to lose weight. I was tired of being fat and I saw how my Dad suffered because he was overweight. I decided to be different.
In years past, I've usually taken the "easy" way out. I went on Nutra-System. Well, the food is just as bad, but these days they don't let you choose what you want to eat--at least not at first. They make you eat a LOT of pasta and . . . I'm not a big pasta fan. So why would I want to spend nearly $300 eating stuff that makes me want to hurl?
If I religiously followed Weight Watchers, I would lose weight a lot faster. But I dohwanna. Actually, I'm kinda sorta following Weight Watchers because I truly believe it's the only sensible diet there is. You eat what you want. Just not in quantities you want. And I have cut down--but not cut everything out. (Heck, I had an Abbott's Custard on Friday--but instead of the regular sized one, I had a kiddie cone. Guess what? It was just as satisfying as the big one.)
It's been five months now and I've lost 18 pounds. Yea!
Except for my jeans being a bit baggier, I don't feel like I've lost ANY weight. I asked Mr. L this morning, "Do I look thinner to you?" and he said, "How can I tell? I see you every day?"
I think I'll always see myself as FAT, even if I lose another 50 pounds. I'm like those girls who are anorexic and see themselves as fat . . . only I really AM fat. I just see myself as fatter than I am.
We'll see a large woman in the grocery store and I'll say to Mr. L "Am I as fat as her?" and he always says "No." But is he lying or do I just see myself as big as these other women?
I really don't have a goal in mind when it comes to weight loss. More a pants size. I have brand new jeans in the closet and it would be nice if I could fit into them. Sadly, at 18 pounds less I still can't get into them. But they're my current goal. Once I can get into them, maybe I'll buy another pair of jeans a size smaller. All I know is I don't want to end up a statistic: diabetes, high blood pressure, chronic illnesses, and then dead.
I'm working toward that goal one pound at a time.
